The Eldridge Knot is pretty awesome, but you have to give the Trinity Knot its due.
How to tie a Trinity Knot.
it doesn’t work.
shhh keep trying
oh wow hey
i’ve got it
So I know text posts are rare here on my blog but just have a lot of things that have been on my mind recently and they sort of go along with the theme here.
I just want to have somebody to care for and who cares for me other than my family.
I mean I love my family and I know they love me. I just really want to be married and have a home and little ones of my own. A home where I don’t feel trapped in between two places.
Trapped between childhood and adulthood.
Trapped between perception and reality.
Trapped between myself and…
heh, guess none of those things are really a result of my home now are they?
On the one hand I just really want someone, but then I start to think that’s a little selfish of me. I never wanted to be one of those people who wanted someone just to have someone, that’s not good for anyone. I guess maybe I just want to prove to myself that I’m not damaged goods and I can handle a relationship and the past doesn’t count because I’ve never ‘technically’ been in a relationship. But shouldn’t God be enough? He is enough. But why can’t I just believe that? It’s true isn’t it?
It’s funny how I never fully realized how little I think of me until I start wishing for someone else to look at me and think I’m something special. And I’ve heard all of it…but I just can’t believe it…why is that? Why can we never see the parts of us that others do? Is it because those are the parts that make up these masks we show them? They’re made of all our good pieces (at least I think mine is..) and all that’s left for us is everything else. I guess after a while that’s all we can see.
My dad says people see the half of us that we don’t. Maybe there’s some proof in that.
Sorry, I’m a bit of a night owl, my mind comes out at night and it’s not always pretty.